Life as i Know !

see i was just thinkin , n it seems to me that my life has changed from what it used to be.

i still wonder if am still the same . is it my past that is still the present, am i living in my past?

am i afraid to move on from what "has been". i wish for the strength to live on . i search for hope , that "ray of light". hold me close , dont let me disappear. hear my words that fade away with the winds that grazes my face ever so softly now.

All those endless desires ! whats become of them ? All those answers that i endlessly seek. Have i gone wrong somewher along the way , could i have stayed up all along just to see what i have missed through this journey of life. ?

i feel so much better when i can deny the pain that i feel and drown myself in the fantasies that could be so much better than this. Now, sometimes i wonder if i would be gone forever and there would be none to remember me.. For eternity is what i wish for.

I will not leave alone, its never too late . Even if i say "it'll be alright " there lies a voice deep down , will it be the same ?

Smokin or may it be drinking , all these wasted ways of forgettin gives us a peace of mind for just that moment but then what after that? What if it never erases , n haunts ?

its not too late , its never too late .- tej